Hhmmmphh

Why must I listen to sad songs? ugggh yeah. I've been reminiscing, over thinking, and whatnot the past days. WOW yeeeah how I miss some things. But I know that if I step back to that situation --- IT WOULD NOT WORK OUT. Things just need some time. I've come into being to not even care anymore. In effect, day by day I feel hopeless about working things out. It's just difficult, I know it sounds awfully stupid that my mind's been dwelling on these kinds of nonsense. But I AM, unfortunately. I'm not the type of person that just forgets, I cherish memories that I've shared with people that I love. And never will I, I REPEAT, never will I hold a grudge against anyone. There's just moments where I'm alone and I think. I've actually improved from before. I don't think AS MUCH as before, but the past few days I found it so odd that I'm even thinking about THIS. I mean, it's been months. And then BAAAM, I thought about it. Maybe, I won't ever forget. Maybe it's still there. But I DONT WANT IT TO. I'm absolutely completely DONE. Yeah I just sounded in denial. BUT I AM, I KNOW IT. MHM Well, I don't know what's in store for me in the future, but wherever it takes me i'll make sure that everything's going how I want it. I won't let anyone bring me down anymore. I'm on my own and gosh it's such a relief from before. Miss independent in progress.