LONG TIME NO BLOG

The little things you do to me are taking me over...........haha that song's stuck in my head! I haven't blogged in fo'ever. It's cuhs im always with fammm and all that ish. Well's so much ish had happened, but no need to blast errrything. YUPPP! Once again, insignificant blog numero tres! hahaha yeah i'm pretty boring. LOL



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ugggh

I'M GROUNDED ......... again

take me back here ):

Mother Dearest

I like this song. Makes me think......I would just like reveal that I love my mom very very very much. I know that I've felt strong dislike towards her for the past few months. But when you see someone break down......it just makes your heart drop and realize, "Your the best mom ever" I sincerely appreciate every single thing that she has done for me. My mom is one of the most inspiring woman in my life right now. I never came to realize how much I truly appreciate her. I just feel ashamed that I wasn't the best daughter, and I've disappointed her many times and left her discouraged. Even a simple "hi mom" when you get home from a long tiring day, I can't do. I can say as many "sorrys" as I can, but that won't be enough, not even close, to forgive me from all the wrong doings and disappointments that I've given her. Majority of teenagers don't really appreciate there own mother. They feel as if they don't even care about them 'cause they won't let them have their freedom. I've felt the EXACT same thing few months ago. My mom would always say no to my plans, and yell, and lecture, and everything. I felt as if she didn't even give a damn about how I felt. Mmmmm, IDK. I'm just ehhh. I don't really know why I'm doing this. I do hope that my mom notices that I've CHANGED, alot. I'm tryin to be a better daughter. I'm trying to make you happy, trying to make you appreaciate me, and trying to love you even more and more each day. You've taken care of me since I was a baby 'till now. Now it's my turn. When you grow old, I promise you that I will be the best daughter, and a frown would never appear on that face. I will keep you smiling and make you happier than how you feel now. I will grant all the wishes that you've been asking me. I couldn't have asked for a better mom. It makes me smile to see you smile at me. I love you and i'll always will <3

I like this song (:

Part 2

Part 2 of my boredom. MERRRY FOURTH TO ERRYBODY! These past few weeks are gettin' better and better and better, hence, im happy (: Well i'm gonna get ready sooon 'cause mom wants to go carassy shopping. & I'm on the phone.....so CIAO

Baby

Thanks, & it's purple! <3

MEGAN FOX

I LOVE HER! AND I LOVE HER AND I LOVE HER AND I LOVE HER!

BETTER TODAY

Hmmm wow I'm pretty bored. This blog is pretty much insignificant compared to my other ones. IM JUST REAAAAAAALL BORED -.- hahaa. So, nonsense, here it goes! LOL. Well I got my new phone! And I miss all those good morning, good night calls, and late nights. Sooo uhmm yay they're back nows (= SO IM ALL GOOOD.


summer '09

sum'n sum'n

haha okay im bored so im blogging! OMG MICHEAL JACKSON DIED. OMG I AM SO SPEECHLESS. No words. WOW, it's WOW. omgggg yeah I really don't know what to say. I like michael jackson. HAH. Naw on the real tho! But damn, wow. I never thought. Well anyways WOW. Hmmm kaaays enough bout that. But I don't think I'm gonna get over that. I feel much better now. YAY FOR ME! Thanks to everyone. And I'm hoping my mom let's me go on friday! Cuhs yeah. HAH. Mhmmm. Well I'm actually pretty excited of moving now. IDK WHY! hahaha I'm gonna be the new kid -.- That's soooooo weird. Well I'm happy though. AND AND AND! I'm getting my phone on Sat. It's in the process right now! IM SOO EXCITED. Those late night calls, I missss verry much! And wake up calls and good night calls, WELCOME BACK. hahahaa. Well yeeeaaah everything's pretty smooth right now. And being sad again is a far out cry from where I stand right now. LOL (=

OH AND I LIKE HER

LALALALLAAA

" So I hopped on a train three in the afternoon I don't know when I'm coming back, but I hope that it's soon...." that's EXACTLY how I feeel right now. I don't know if it makes any sense. But to me it does. Wells uhhhm my dad just barged in my room right now saying, " WE GOT THE HOUSE! " oh fckn GUUUREAT! I get to live in Fontana. UGH I am hoping not. That place is just UGGGH, no explanation. Not my typa city. But the schools alright and the people, But the city itself. NOT DIGGIN IT. Well anywhos, these past few weeeks I have been through rough shiii. Lot's of rain forsure. One thing that's been stuck in my head was, " Maybe it's the person that's making you happy, and he's just RIGHT there and you don't even know that 'cause you won't even bother to look. " hmm maybe he's right, MAYBE. Well, yeeeup he does make me happy though. But it's just ehh wtf....... But hmm why not! Worth the try. It doesn't hurt to try. I'll give it a chance.


I miss the cousins!

SUPP ESE!

HAHAHHAHAAAAAAAAAAAA!

ugggh

Thinking again. Thinking about YOU ................
You're never gonna get out of my head aren't you? uggh -_____-

FML

wtffffffff man! I keep losing my things, like seriously what is goin' on with me?! I lost my purse and errrything a few nights ago and NEVER got it back! OH, AND ON TOP OF THAT, I lost my phone last night )= I mean the night was fun and alll, but I lost my phone! like are you serious? OMG, well good thing my mom wasnt trippin out or anything, she just laughed at me like a weirdassss. But how can I live without a phone. No efffin communication with anyone. And myspace and online ish are lagggers, ugggh so like this is really a FML moment. And OH GREAT, it's almost summmer. WOW FML BIGGG TIME!

Hhmmmphh

Why must I listen to sad songs? ugggh yeah. I've been reminiscing, over thinking, and whatnot the past days. WOW yeeeah how I miss some things. But I know that if I step back to that situation --- IT WOULD NOT WORK OUT. Things just need some time. I've come into being to not even care anymore. In effect, day by day I feel hopeless about working things out. It's just difficult, I know it sounds awfully stupid that my mind's been dwelling on these kinds of nonsense. But I AM, unfortunately. I'm not the type of person that just forgets, I cherish memories that I've shared with people that I love. And never will I, I REPEAT, never will I hold a grudge against anyone. There's just moments where I'm alone and I think. I've actually improved from before. I don't think AS MUCH as before, but the past few days I found it so odd that I'm even thinking about THIS. I mean, it's been months. And then BAAAM, I thought about it. Maybe, I won't ever forget. Maybe it's still there. But I DONT WANT IT TO. I'm absolutely completely DONE. Yeah I just sounded in denial. BUT I AM, I KNOW IT. MHM Well, I don't know what's in store for me in the future, but wherever it takes me i'll make sure that everything's going how I want it. I won't let anyone bring me down anymore. I'm on my own and gosh it's such a relief from before. Miss independent in progress.

Rockin' that Thang

WSUP BIO CLASS!

FML

I hate how I'm failing a class. My mom said she's gunna send me to the Philippines!
IM SAAAAAAAAAAAAAD )=


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CHANGES

Wow okay I haven't been on a computer for the longest! And so many things had happened. My mom knows EVERYTHING now. And I'm more open to her, which is good! And I'm failing a class )= BUMMMMER. My mom doesn't get all vicious with me anymore, WHICH IS GOOOD AGAIN! I'm starting to love my life, hehee. I'm at vegas, and it's really fun so far. Last night was pretty chill, hookah was arrright. And yeee. About to make breakfast, waiting for our ride later, then off to a rave, but I think we'll just crash a party.
ANWYHOS BYES! No computer. SOOOOO SAD! )=

ANYWHOS

It's been a while that I wrote something on here. I got addicted to twitter, 'cause it's mos def faster! Well yeah, maaaaan so many things happened these past few weeks. But there's no need to blast it on my blog. Anywhos, I went to vegas last weekend and goin' back there again next weekend! YUPPP, I'm excited! Well I'm gonna jet I have a call waiting.....BYES!

Tweeeet

Wells yeah I decided to make a twitter 'cause its shorter than blogs. And It's like extended networks. Well I actually made one a long time ago but yeeuup I thought it was a blogspot and I was really confused, HAH. So I just deleted it. But now, I know how to use it. MHMM! So I made one. Follow me of ya want. I dont cuuuurrrrrr.

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I love her

Better Today

I'm bored, My eyes are half closed, Today was freezing, Went to church, Bought food, Family time. I'm really bored so I'm just blogging. Let go, Past is the Past. Start over. Indecisive, Relentlessly over thinking, Should I do this? hmmm. WTH MAN -_- FORGET EVERYTHING! YEAH. period. This shouldn't be that hard. I can do this. hah mhm! If you can, then I can too! Starting this Spring Break. I AM STARTING OVER. I promise myself. But before anything else, I'm giving back whatever's not mine. That should help a bit. Wells, I'm getting there, ALMOST. Just a few more days of forgetting then I shall be back to my normal self. Start over, new life, new people, new feelings, new infatuation, new EVERYTHING.

OH BOY.
"Love can make you happy. But often times it hurts, but love is only special when you give it to who its worth."

"Love is not a matter of counting the years. But making the years count."

"Once in awhile , Right in the middle of an ordinary life, Love gives us a fairy tale."

"Guys are like stars, there are millions out there, but only one can make your dreams come true."

"A break up is like a broken mirror. It is better to leave it broken than hurt yourself to fix it."

"Sometimes the person you really need is the one you didn’t think you wanted."

"I miss you a little, I guess you could say, a little too much, a little too often, and a little more each day."

"There's a girl in my mirror crying tonight, and there's nothing I can say to make her feel alright."


"Moving on is simple, it’s what you leave behind that makes it so difficult."


Life's too short to dwell on all that's wrong.
I want my priceless vacation.

SMILE

Turnin' that frown upside down.